Change

I've changed. Though I am not share I like the changes. I'm just not happy, I haven't been keeping up with my home work. I don't think I am comfortable with my new surroundings. As great as it is. My classes are excellent. Its my down time I struggle with. I am overwhelmed with anxiety, I don't want to drink for fear of becoming a sad drunk. I've been a sad drunk that never happened before I came here. I just haven't met enough people yet and I'm beginning to think I am warring thin on my small group of friends. I'm lonely in an enormous city. That is the way it is I guess there just so many people , I get nervous in large groups, its over load. Yet another new thing getting nervous in large groups. I've never had sleeping problems before but I'll stay up with thoughts running through my head getting 3-4 hours of sleep and then I'm up and I can't sleep anymore. Am I finding my true self? If so I don't know how I like him.

I guess I should brighten up. I 've been reading Mike Nelsons "Mind Over Matters" It makes me laugh out loud. Currently I am in a chapter where he is recapping his experiences in musical theatre, which were unsparing. He jokes about hateful actors and line screw ups heresy a line. Playing king Arthur in Camelot " halfway through the show, when the time came to explain to Lancelot what a picnic was misspoke my line. "you know, a picnic-you eat girls and chase grapes around trees" its hard to win an audience back after saying something like that, and not something that should even be attempted while wearing cream tights."
good times, there.